“We all deserve to be loved by someone who doesn’t need convincing”

Without knowing, I did something I told myself I would never do again. I fell for someone, became vulnerable, became attached… I gave my heart to you.

Blame

Pride & Prejudice

The Notebook

Sex and the City

Romeo + Juliet

Serendipity

Notting Hill

Love Actually

Young Victoria

Princess Bride

Anne of Green Gables

sure, so easy to find.....

New Obsession

Rafael Lazzini

Wasted

I hate when my love is wasted on someone who doesn't understand it, doesn't feel it, and doesn't want it.

Another one bites the dust

I went on eharmony. I met some guys, they all kinda sucked. One was a bit more persistant than the others. I started liking him, alot. 5 months of dating, many trials and tests to or relationship in that time, I started to fall in love with him. The feeling apparently was not mutual.

We broke up yesterday.

I'm hurting. Part of me is hoping he comes back to me to try to make it right.....but usually that never happens...you know movie like happy ending. So, I've got to move on. Find someone who will love me...just the way I am(thanks bridget jones).

I guess I'm not one of those happy couples on the eharmony commercials. Damn. So close.

Butterflies and Chocolate = Perfect

Oh all the lovely things that make me happy. I love when I get butterflies because of thoughts of a certain someone. All morning long, just the thought of him, makes me smile. I had a great date last night with my new love interest. Let's call him Mountain Man. We went out to dinner and it was perfectly ended by chocolate espresso rum bread pudding. So, there is a very hot man, lots of red wine, and chocolate. Does it get any better??? Um yes, yes my friends it does.  ;-)

Doomsville, USA

I've met a great guy via online dating. He is ambitious, smart, handsome, athletic, affectionate, the list goes on. Ok, he isn't perfect, but he pretty damn awesome. So why do I think in the back of my mind/heart.....I will mess it up!!. OR he is hiding something, a big RED flag that I have yet to discover. Oh no, I can't just be happy with the place that I am, living in the now. Maybe the reason I've been single for so long isn't because of them, maybe it's actually because of ME???

I'm going to just try to enjoy getting to know this man, enjoy the ride. He is just so freaking great that I can't believe he is real.

It's all about the accent....

This is one of my favorites

Why is there such an appeal to a man with an accent. It's like we all just melt when they talk, even if they are saying something so simple as "I went to the store today".......oh yeah that sounds hot! I've actually met an Australian man, who lives there. We talk on the phone about once a week for the past 2 months. I save each and every one of his voice mails to listen to when I need a fix.  He is HOT, and it's not just the accent. This is a true man to the core. This man might actually come back to the states to visit me. And this could be a problem. For many reasons, but the main reason is the fact that I want to see him, and there is a chance that I might be getting serious with someone that lives here. Could I hold back with the amazing, nice, sexy man here because in the back of my mind I can't wait to see my Aussie? Trouble is a lurking.

Delete Heart-BACK!

"You were the one who made things different, you were the one who took me in. You were the one thing I could count on, above all, you were my friend."

- Tom Petty

I really only want my friends to read my blog. Back in December some people found this blog, that I didn't want to read, so I shut down. I think after the passing months they have forgotten about this little blog of mine.

To follow some little stories that have gotten me to where I am now.......which is exciting!

Can we talk about.......

Adam Scott!!!! Well not really talk, just look. I think I have converted a few friends into AS fans after my "List" post. So I thought, we need some more pics to make us smile on this lovely Friday afternoon.

Have a great weekend!
Diane

Jealousy

I was never a jealous person, for a very long time. I never had anything to be jealous about when it came to men I was dating. I always trusted them, and never worried about other women. Well my friends, not anymore. I know the exact moment I became a jealous person, and from then on there was no looking back. I've converted over to "jealous" being a part of me. I truely wish I could not look at situations with a suspicious eye, but it's my nature now.

I know I can't stop someone I'm dating from straying, cheating, leaving me. It is out of my control. If thats what he chooses to do, he will do it. My reactions, words, and worry will not stop a man from hurting me. So, there is no point in getting jealous, its a waste of my energy and emotional upheavel. But, there is no rationale to how I feel. I can't explain it.

Last night I got jealous, and I thought I had a valid reason to be, at the time. Today, after careful thought, maybe I was overreacting a bit. I can't help it though!!!! :)

Tis the Season.......

I'm lovin the holidays this year. Surprising actually considering that I'm VERY single, and have had such an interesting past year. I was prepping myself to hit a huge wall of depression come December, being that it's my 31st BDay and the in pending loneliness that comes with Christmas. Last year, I honestly didn't celebrate Christmas except for on the 25th. I didn't put up my tree, no decorations, no Christmas music. I just ignored it at all costs. BUT, this year I'm deep in the middle of it! I wake up in the morning with Christmas songs in my head. I don't really listen to any other music right now.

I guess I'm embracing where I am in life right now. I can enjoy this season with no attachments, no one else to worry about. I like it. 

Dating Advice

This made me laugh :)
Yahoo Shine IMPOSSIBLE Dating tips.

Happy Birthday to ME

I sought for Love
But Love ran away from me.
I sought my Soul
But my Soul I couldn't see.
Then I sought You,
And I found all three.

I feel great this year on my birthday, better than last year. I'm more aware of myself and what I seek in everyday. This will be an amazing 31st year :-)