The List

I get bored, often. I have devised my list of 5 celebrity men that "if" I were in a relationship, and if I had the opportunity would be granted a "Pass" to hook up with one of these men on the list. If you remember, this was a Friends episode, Ross had Isabella Rossellini on his list, but traded her out, then Isabella walked into Central Perk. Ross went up to her, said she was on his list, she wanted to see the list, but unfortunately she wasn't on it. Ross didn't get lucky :(

After many years of careful thought, weighing on many options, trading out as my tastes have changed. Here it is, in no certain order-------------------------

Adam Scott, Pro Golfer

Joel McHale, Funny Man

Josh Duhamel

Justin Timberlake

Caleb Followill, Kings of Leon

Nervous

WOW, my heart is beating faster, I can't sleep(without a pill), and my mind is racing. Hours till I see a certain someone and I'm a nervous wreck! 

Trying to think of the last time I was this nervous........

Ok, I have never Bungee Jumped, but I'm nervous just thinking about it.

Used to love roller coasters, now, not so much



Yes, I have walked down the aisle, I was nervous, hence maybe the reason I'm not married to that guy anymore

So, breathe Di, keep calm, life is out of my control, I can only control how I react to life. Breathe, Breathe.  I've been doing alot of yoga lately :) that's why all the breathing.

Heading Home

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Ahhhh, the holidays have begun. Time to make my way north to Tulsa for Thanksgiving. I'm really looking forward to it. To see my friends, and I guess family as well, although they can me a little taxing at times.

I always loved going home to Tulsa when I didn't live there. I loved going out with friends and seeing people I haven't seen in awhile. It's fun.

I also have an interesting meeting/date with an old flame. I'm trying not to over analyze that situation too much. Just have fun, catch up. Problem is, I'm totally over analyzing, too a point that I can't sleep the last few nights. I'm sure my old flame isn't thinking too much about it right now, because, after all he is a man. I'm ready to just see him, and get it over with so I can stop thinking about all the "what ifs".

Really, I should go back to my previous post, and take some of my own advise. You know, If it didn't work out then, could it really work out now????? In my heart-I say yes, in my mind-I say no. HMMMM quite the dilemma.... 

Feelin Good :)

I feel very proud of myself today. The situation with Shorty was still a roller coaster the last few weeks. I really didn't post anything on here because it would be redundant to anyone reading this blog(hi Auds and Susan, my only readers)))). It was redundant in my relationship with Shorty. He was not considerate of my time, always always late. Not 10-15 minutes late, like 45 to a hour late. I still would barely see him, and when we did hang out most of the time he would be preoccupied with his phone or the game on TV.

The last straw was Sunday. We had plans to hangout during the day once my family that was visiting me left. Shorty was MIA for nearly 4 hours. Excuse=Napping.

Last night he came over to see me, and I broke it off. I FEEL GREAT. Best decision I ever made. All his crap just piled up to the point that I just don't like him anymore.

So now I don't have to deal with his crap anymore. His lack of money, he living situation with his PARENTS(Yah!), his lack of time for me. The burden of it is lifted off me.

Quotes

I loved the book Eat, Pray, Love. I read it last year at a point in my life that I was alone, and down over a man that had hurt me. There are a few quotes that I relate to so much that I often think about when the cards are not playing in my favor with a man. Here are the ones that pretty much discribe me to a tee:

"I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism."

"If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will protect upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else."


"This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something. "

I can't wait to see the movie, missed it in the Theater, so waiting for DVD.

One Day at a Time

So, I took things wrong, again. Since my last post "we" have been great! I might be over dramatic at points. Its a big step for me to admit I'm dramatic. I've always thought of myself as an easy going girl, low maintenance. But I guess somewhere along the way.....probably in the last year....I have started taking situations with men a little too seriously, or literally, or emotionally. Not really sure. I'm thinking I need to chill out.
Ways for me to CHILL OUT:

By far my favorite way to CHILL OUT: