Can we talk about.......

Adam Scott!!!! Well not really talk, just look. I think I have converted a few friends into AS fans after my "List" post. So I thought, we need some more pics to make us smile on this lovely Friday afternoon.

Have a great weekend!
Diane

Jealousy

I was never a jealous person, for a very long time. I never had anything to be jealous about when it came to men I was dating. I always trusted them, and never worried about other women. Well my friends, not anymore. I know the exact moment I became a jealous person, and from then on there was no looking back. I've converted over to "jealous" being a part of me. I truely wish I could not look at situations with a suspicious eye, but it's my nature now.

I know I can't stop someone I'm dating from straying, cheating, leaving me. It is out of my control. If thats what he chooses to do, he will do it. My reactions, words, and worry will not stop a man from hurting me. So, there is no point in getting jealous, its a waste of my energy and emotional upheavel. But, there is no rationale to how I feel. I can't explain it.

Last night I got jealous, and I thought I had a valid reason to be, at the time. Today, after careful thought, maybe I was overreacting a bit. I can't help it though!!!! :)

Tis the Season.......

I'm lovin the holidays this year. Surprising actually considering that I'm VERY single, and have had such an interesting past year. I was prepping myself to hit a huge wall of depression come December, being that it's my 31st BDay and the in pending loneliness that comes with Christmas. Last year, I honestly didn't celebrate Christmas except for on the 25th. I didn't put up my tree, no decorations, no Christmas music. I just ignored it at all costs. BUT, this year I'm deep in the middle of it! I wake up in the morning with Christmas songs in my head. I don't really listen to any other music right now.

I guess I'm embracing where I am in life right now. I can enjoy this season with no attachments, no one else to worry about. I like it. 

Dating Advice

This made me laugh :)
Yahoo Shine IMPOSSIBLE Dating tips.

Happy Birthday to ME

I sought for Love
But Love ran away from me.
I sought my Soul
But my Soul I couldn't see.
Then I sought You,
And I found all three.

I feel great this year on my birthday, better than last year. I'm more aware of myself and what I seek in everyday. This will be an amazing 31st year :-)

Timing

I've been thinking about relationships(big surprise), why it works sometimes where you fall in love and why other times it never really launches even though you have great chemistry and all the right ingredients are there for it to be something great, i.e. LOVE. I've done some research on this, not really by choice, but I have come up with a thought on why sometimes it never lifts off. Failure to launch.

I was talking with a guy friend recently. He said something that in the year and a half that I've known him he never mentioned before. "Well, I'm not even going to think about marriage until I'm 30". This idea of his has been in his brain for years now. There is no pressure for him to actively look for the "one". He is happy with being single and not focusing on a relationship. Oh my, why can't I be like that?

What I have realized is that I believe a lot of men have this notion. Maybe not so much a time stamp, just that all the ducks have to be in a row before they even consider settling down. All the ducks in a row can be a number of things; career, money, owning a house, owning a BMW, physically fit, sewing their wild oats, this list goes on and on.  So, if this is true, if they aren't ready and they meet a great girl, like me :), they won't even let the relationship lift off because they know its not the right timing. This sometimes isn't even thought out by men, it is a sub-conscious act.

Meanwhile, here I am, I meet a great guy like Shorty, chemistry-check, humor-check, intelligent-check, kind hearted-check, all the ingredients are there for ME, but not for Shorty. He doesn't even know it, but his launch date is not now, and probably not anytime soon. That might be why he sub-consciously didn't treat me all the great, putting me on low end of his priority list.

It's not just Shorty, there are probably 3 other men, that I liked, we had a lot of the right ingredients, but it wasn't the right time for them. My question is, why is it always the right time for me, but never for them?  I can't do or say or control any of this. I'm just waiting for the right ingredients to match up with the right timing.